All right. I’ve decided to take a break from the three most time consuming media sites, for me: Twitter, Instagram, and Tumblr. Oh my gosh! The walls are crashing all around me! No. That’s not how I feel about this decision, at all. I’m honestly craving a total cleanse of the hypnotizing action of scrolling.
“We all care what people think of us. We all want to feel accepted. We all want to feel liked. Social media multiplies those thoughts and feelings without us even realizing it. It’s not healthy to always be under the knife of criticism.” – Jason Zook: Jason Does Stuff
Recently, I’ve come to terms with the reality of that constant, subconscious temptation to compare my life to others’. My life is great! I have a loving family and an exciting job. Despite all that, I have a need to make more of a connection with myself without the pressure of an expected daily post. My plan is to delete the apps from all my devices, and install those computer programs that are designed to block you from media sites and keep you “focused”.
I want to divert more of my attention to developmental sites like this one, my personal clip sites where I produce my own adult content, and maybe post on the YouTube channel I have that collects dust. That being said, expect the usual automatic posts. That doesn’t mean I’ll have to physically use the sites themselves. Or, should I discontinue all links? I’ll figure that out in the long run. I’ll still be checking emails and answering the phone when it rings.
Thinking about it now, I’m getting pretty excited. As an Aquarius, I’m electrified by drastic change. Instead of posting, the best prints from photo shoots can be added to the portfolio book I bought on Amazon a year ago that I’ve never printed anything out for. I’m a mess. I’m at a standstill, and I want so badly to be more present in the life I’ve created thus far.
When I decide to open back up to the main social media world, I hope to have developed more of an unwavering confidence in myself and my abilities. I hope to know whole-heartedly what my human revolution is and have motivation to promote a cause that helps others and promotes peace. Those are major things I want from this life I’ve been given, but lately I’ve been feeling suffocated. It feels like being in the middle of a blender and being the only ingredient that doesn’t blend. It’s highly uncomfortable.
According to this article, by the end of this journey I’ll be more grateful for everything in my life instead of constantly comparing it to the ones I see on a timeline. I think, I hope, I freaking pray this will create an overall happier, care-free feeling, leading to more productive days!